Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Love, From You Both.

Hey there!

Doing good?

Fantastic! Hope you are having great time in your life!

What is love?

To me, love comes in many forms. Love from parents, siblings, partner, colleague, friends, strangers and even other beings.

Let's talk about parental love.

I don't know what kind of parental love you are having but let me share about mine.

Dad works alone as a mechanic. Working alone as a mechanic is not a simple task. Imagine carrying the heavy gear box with just some help of leverage, changing tires, thinking of solution to solve circuit problems and worse of all, if he has an accident (touch wood) it would take sometime for us to discover.

He would wake up and prepare breakfast for us. Almost every morning unless I woke up, he would ask me to do instead, which is also a rare occasion.

Just by preparing breakfast, he constantly did it since I was 7 years old. It has been 13 years yet he still preparing breakfast for us.

Before I wake up, breakfast is ready to serve. Even though it is just spread bread, I am always grateful to have my dad. I could say it is rare to see a father preparing breakfast before the sun even rise,

Mom on the other hand, gave up her career to full time taking care of us 3 kids. She could have hold a high salary job but instead she chose this path. She graduated in University Malaya, Malaysia's famous government university and she is a very smart lady.

When I was a teen, I always wondered why she chose this path, why she would sacrifice her career? If she did not chose this path we would have a very porch life and could travel around the world. I could have get whatever I wanted in life.

Sometimes she would say that she should go out to work but no one would want to hire her because of her age. Plus, she is the one who settles dad's company account. She did not take account during her study life. She learn from her friend, borrowed accounting book from her friend and studied it. That's how she picked up her accounting skills.

Dad has moody temper. Maybe because he is stress working alone and customers kept coming. 

Mom, I would say she lectures a lot. She could repeat things again, again and again. She also could not really take my dad's temper vice versa on dad for he lectures. Things are kept repeating though, can't blame her.

Well, nobody is perfect. Same goes to me. I need them. There is still many things in life that I still need their support. As time pass, I could see the wrinkles in them are growing, white hairs sprouting rapidly. Deep down, I am really afraid to lose them, but I am still hurting them everyday. I tried to behave as a child that they would wish for, I just unable to.

I feel that the more we love someone, the more we take advantage on them, the more we hurt them.

Every time my mom lectures me, I would feel annoyed. Either I kept quite or I tried to explain myself which clearly not effective, end up keeping quiet is the best way to stop her lectures. To be honest, her 95% of her lectures are right. It is just that I would not accept it.

She feels that the distance between us so close yet so far. I told her it is the generation gap. It hurts to see her feeling down. Her cries breaks me apart. Despite all these hurting that I cause to her, she never said that " I am regret to give birth to you."

Me on the other hand, always ask myself, why am I given birth into this family? I told myself I don't feel love. The truth is I do feel their love. They are emitting love in their way, not the way I wanted to receive, that's why some part of me refuse to accept their love.

My dad love us but never told us. He show us in a different way instead. I do remember when I was kid, they would beat me up if I did something that is not right, but at night, my dad would come to me, applying the Chinese medicine on the bruises. He would say sorry to me too for hitting me too hard.

Dad never want to cry in front of us. He kept his suffering to himself. I caught him crying once, he tried to hide his face and ask me go to sleep.

Mom always told me " You used to hug me every night and wish me good night, nowadays you didn't." Every time she says that, I would do what she wanted, then did not practice it. Mom would tell me that she love me, to enjoy my day, to drive safe, to come home have dinner, and many more.

Dad don't really says much. I don't recall when was the last "I love you" from dad. I also don't recall when was the last time I said that to my dad. "Wai, drive carefully." is already at his limit, but it was heart warming enough.

I would want to say "I love you dad" but somehow, I just can't. I don't even know why I could not do it.

What kind of experience that you had with your parents?

Are you grateful to have them in your life?

Do they have you backed up when you are in trouble?

Do you feel their love?

Do share with me!

Enjoy this moments with them! Happy, Sad, Anger are the emotions that bring us closer as a family.

Cheers,
Synonym96




Monday, September 19, 2016

Cold Morning

Good Morning!

Well it is 7:54 A.m here and the sun are yet to rise.

How are you doing? I really hope you do well in whatever you are doing!

This morning were unlike the others that I had.

I was awaken by the sound of my brother's alarm (we sleeps together in a double-decker bed).

I did not bother to look at the time, I know it is early 6.

I turn off the alarm and intent to continue my sleep until I heard my dad footsteps from the other room across my room. Great, I won't get to sleep.

As I have guessed, my dad asked me to send my brother to school. Well, to be honest, I am annoyed by the last minute request, but I did not protest. 

I went to the hall and prepared breakfast. My brother woke up and we had bread spread with butter and Kaya.

As we head out the house, we heard raindrops hitting only our awning. 

As time pass, the rain were pouring like crazy from above. I drove as slow as possible because I could not even see clearly. 

Reached my brother's school, okay, how should I send him there without getting wet? I thought myself.

Umbrella did not seem to be working perfectly, when I opened the car's door, the rain just kept coming into the car before I could even open up my umbrella.

Umbrella opened, went down. Half soaked even with the help of umbrella.

Got my brother down then went back into my car.

Okay, job done. Time to go to work.

Not sure whether is the weather or is just me still sleepy. I ended up taking a route which is twice the journey to my workplace.

But lucky enough, rain had slowed down and I am almost dry. Can't stop shivering in wet during the cold weather.

I bet you too have different mornings like mine, do share with me!

I love to listen/ read stories from others! I really do!

Hope a bad morning does not spoil the mood of your entire day!

Cheers,
Synonym96









Thursday, September 15, 2016

Food Here That I love

Hey Hey Hey! 

Welcome! Glad to have the privilege for you to read my post!


Hope you are enjoying your day as I do!


Dear readers,


You might or might not know, that 16 of September is Malaysia Day (which is tomorrow)! It is the day which held to commemorate the establishment of the Malaysian federation on the same date in 1963. It marked the joining together of Malaya, North Borneo and Sarawak to be Malaysia.


Well, I am not going to explain the history of Malaysia, but I am going to tell you my personal experience as a Malaysian citizen. 


*Just to clarify that what I am going to tell you, are solely based on my experiences and what I remember.*


First and foremost, the different races that live harmony together in a country. The three most populated races are the Malays, Chinese and Indians.


I am a Malaysian Chinese, but my friends are not only Chinese people. They are also Malay and Indian people.


We share different cultures together in this very land. By sharing, I am talking about festivals, food, languages, and many more others.


Today I am going to start with food ( like who does not love food?), because there are different culture here, therefore, there are different type of food coming from different races.

Roti Canai,  is my current love in Malaysian cuisine. Cheap (cost only RM 1) and delicious comes with curry, dhall and sambal. It is a perfect meal, but I would call it snack as one is never enough to fill my stomach. 

Roti Canai best paired up with Teh Tarik, Teh means tea while Tarik means pull in Bahasa Malaysia. Teh tarik is basically a black tea mixed with condensed milk and then literally pulled by pouring from one cup to another cup back and forth to create the smooth texture of the delightful tea.

Besides Roti Canai, Nasi Lemak also is one of the spicy yet tempting for the locals. It comes with rice, sambal, slices of cucumber, fried anchovies and peanuts. It only cost RM 2.50 and it is easy to grab in the morning for breakfast! Nasi lemak is mouthwatering by just looking at it! Trust me, I tried taking Nasi Lemak everyday for a week and did not get bored of it!

Char Kuey Teow too, is one of the food I would recommend you to try. If you have tried Roti Canai and Nasi Lemak, taking Char Kuey Teow is a mission complete kind of thing as you took the three dish originated from the three main races in Malaysia.

Personally I like consuming my Char Kuey Teow dry instead of wet. Dry as it it is not watery vice versa. Char Kuey Teow is a savory dish that also served well with sambal. You are unable to see the sambal as the cook would fry it together with the dish itself. Char Kuey Teow usually cost around RM 5.50 to RM 7 depending the area of the town.

Well, this is just tip of the ice berg. Malaysia is like the heaven of food! 

Nasi Dagang, Chapati, Pan Mee, Ayam Penyit, Tosai, Chee Cheong Fun and many more!

What are you waiting for if you are genuine food lover?

Drop by Malaysia one day, and feel what I feel is to be like staying in Malaysia!

Food everywhere!

Hope you get hold of local cuisine in Malaysia and how tasteful it is!
Share your experience with me about food in Malaysia! What is the food that you love most here?

Enjoy your meals!

Cheers,
Synonym96














Wednesday, September 14, 2016

100 Things That I Want To Do As Long As I Live

How's it going?

Great?

Great!

So my previous post on "My Life So Far..." I have mentioned that I came out a list that I wanted to do.

To be honest, 100 is nothing much in life.

You might be wondering why do I limit myself, why not go a thousand things to do instead?

Well, if you read my last post, you would know that I might or might not even finish this 100 things because a part of me is still procrastinating.

It took me three days to just think of things that I wanted to do. I feel accomplish and satisfied with my list.

I am going to show you my bucket list. I cannot guarantee that I will finish my list, but I would strive hard for it because I am confident I could do it! 

This list that I made, gave me a point and references to live my life fully. I took it as my goals (which I never had goals in my life).

Laugh at me, no problem! I am glad I could bring laughter in your life!

So here is my list. Trust me, I don't filter my list, I typed in whatever I wrote:

1. Get a lovely wife
2. Get a dream car (haven't thought about it at the moment)
3. Get a house
4. Invest in business
5. Write a love letter to your crush
6. Plan an event for one of your friends
7. Publish a book
8. Run in a marathon
9. Go experience fishing
10. Visit Paris
11. Attend best friend's wedding
12. Learn archery
13. Create at least a source of passive income
14. Prepare a will
15. Enjoy the rain with your favourite company
16. Tip a waiter/waitress exactly the price of food you ate
17. Tell dad you love him
18. Spend half day with a homeless
19. Send someone anonymous gift
20. Pay toll for the person behind you
21. Spend entire day alone
22. Make a candle
23. Spend a day only by using left hand
24. Pair up someone with another to their marriage
25. Spend someone a cinema movie
26. Attend an orchestra
27. Inspire someone
28. Send message in a bottle, then throw it into the sea
29. Stay up for 24 hours
30. Call up a company and thank them for their service
31. Fold 1000 paper crane and give it to someone
32. Paintball adventure
33. Spend your time in orphanage ( min half day)
34. Give a stranger Valentine card
35. Ice skating
36. Grow long hair
37. Listen to a stranger's life story
38. Leave RM 100 tip
39. Leave a note on someone's car
40. Order pizza and send it to a random house
41. Call someone random to wish them wholeheartedly
42. Learn an instrument
43. Stay alone without family during studies
44. Cook something for your another half
45. Hit 80 kg with a healthy state of body
46. Create a board game
47. Try golf
48. Try squash
49. Talk to an elderly, get to know their experiences
50. Try surfing
51. Own a yacht
52. Plan a surprise party for someone
53. Save a life
54. Calm a fight
55. Have a god child
56. Come out with a theory
57. Have two reliable friend (trust them with life)
58. Sleep on the grass
59. A blogpost with at least 100 readers
60. Attend a blind date.
61. Organize gathering 
62. Have strong connection with influential people
63. Catch a robber
64. Learn flower language
65. Be the one who friends always seek for advice
66. Talk about bitter past and laugh about it
67. Star gazing
68. Comfort someone crying to smiling
69. Propose to someone, and bring her to prom as your prom mate
70. Be remembered as a good figure
71. Help someone in road accident
72. Convince someone to not commit suicide
73. Have a good relationship with neighbors
74. Own a good gaming pc and good net
75. Research about AIDS
76. Learn about local cultures
77. Pick up CPR
78. See the northern lights
79. Learn Korean language
80. Pick up photography skills
81. Learn ballroom dancing
82. Be at the Olympics game
83. Conquer the fear of watching horror movie
84. Help someone with one of their list
85. Attend a new year count down party
86. Skydive
87. Visit Niagara Falls
88. Help someone to pay for their parking tickets
89. Forgive someone who hurts you a lot
90. Pick up someone drunk and take care of them till they sober
91. Attend concerts
92. Open francise 
93. Spend a week without internet
94. Pick up psychology ( leisure purpose)
95. Build up a good reputation
96. Buy a dress I like for for my girl before marriage
97. Experience clubbing
98. Hold a press comference
99. Join a cyber game tournament
100. Write a 100 bucket list

And that's the things I want to do. The ones I typed in bold and italic were the things that I have done it!

I really appreciate your ideas in things that we could do in life!

Feel free to comment anything that you think it is worth doing!

If you have a bucket list, do comment your link as I could click into your webpage to read your list! 

All the best in accomplishing them dear readers!

Cheers, 
Synonym96 






















My life so far...

Hey! How's things going so far?

Whatever it is, keep up the positive vibe! I am sure you would do good!

I am going to talk a little about my life, bear with me for a moment.

I have been living a rather comfortable life compared to others. I have food to eat, place to stay, shirt to wear, clean water to drink, I am not sick throughout the year, I have plenty of friends and of course, I have great parents that always got my back ( I never really been into anything serious though).

These days I feel that I am living in a comfort zone. I became lazy, I have no aim in life, nothing to achieve, take almost nothing seriously, and worst, I have no determination to finish most of the things that I have started.

It is really a turning point (I wish) in my life as I saw most of my friends are heading towards success in their life and I am stuck at a point where I still wander aimlessly on what I am going to do in my future. 

By looking at their achievement, two feelings hit me:
1. I feel great to have successful friends around me, certainly proud to tell people when they are amazed what my friends could do that "Hey, s/he is my friend!"
2. To be honest, deep down, I feel inferior. I really want to be at the same level as them.

Therefore, I thought that I need to change my current self.

Somehow, there are always these "Buts" in my life.

"I want have Baskin Robbins ice-creams, but I don't have the money."
"I can come out, but I am lazy."
"I want to pick up Korean language, but I have no time."

I realize those are excuses that I always come up with to comfort myself for not doing my priorities or desire. I told myself that I have to change ever since I was 15 years old. Well, I had sort of procrastinate that too. 

I do hope my "Buts" are those good "Buts". They say people can't change you unless you are willingly change yourself.

I don't want to live a life where I just wake up, go to work, eat and sleep.

I want to inspire someone, I want to be someone, I want to make a change for good cause, I want to live the opportunity given to me. 

It is such a shame that I have wasted most of my time by doing nothing, playing online games (still trying to quit this addiction), and many others that I could not remember. 

I am having problems with my memories. I often forget to do things, forget this and that, made my life miserable. Probably because my addiction to online computer games and also all day long facing my phone by using social media. I am slowly changing in this issue, using my phone lesser day by day.

What should I do to achieve what I desire? Where to start? When to start?

I asked myself a lot. Asking questions that sometimes I could not even give a perfect answer for it. Why did I do that? What have I not done yet? Why do I feel sad? Where is my determination?

I think the problem with me is that I am asking the wrong questions to myself. Maybe I should just answer without questioning.

"I need to change! I have to change! I want to change!"

I wonder is there even a right way to live in life.

So far, what I have done is just coming up with a list of 100 things that I want to do as long as I live and still searching pathways towards success.

At least now, I roughly know what I want to work as in future. I know there are no guarantees in futures, but that's the fun of living right?

I value your opinion, feel free to comment if there is any! 

Share your stories too! Comment your link and I would read yours! I really love to know how different individual talk about their life.

Good luck for your future undertakings dear readers! 

Cheers, 
Synonym96











My Very First Attempt

Hello from the other side!

Really hope that you are enjoying your day there no matter where you are and what weather your are having!

There are a lot of blogs out there, I have always wondered what exactly people feel when they publish a blog.

Is it the satisfaction of completing it? 

Is it just for sharing whatever experience that we have in our daily life or maybe something extraordinary that just happened in our life? 

Is it a dairy that are visible to public that we keep updating our life feeds?

I have thought of writing a blog ever since I was 14 years old. Oh wells, too bad that I am the kind of people who procrastinate most of my task (sometimes I even procrastinate to go to the gents, because I am literally too lazy to walk.), and here I am posting my very first blog after the thought about this 6 years ago.

If you are wondering why do I post blog, well is really just out of curiosity of what does writing a blog feels like. I have many friends who post blogs, vlogs, Youtube videos and even started business on the web which make me feel a tiny bit (maybe a lot) of left out from them.

The second reason is because posting a blog is one of my bucket list, things that I want to do in life. Whether it success in a glamorous way, or failed down the pit, I don't mind because to me, it is something great for me to complete tasks (not to say I never completed any tasks in my life, is just that my laziness level is beyond imagination), and of course, experience is ultimately important for a youth like me.

What is the point having a life but we don't live it? I believe I am born to live through hardships and achieve success because (to me) life is like that, like waves going up and down, like roller coaster where we are terrified of it yet we enjoy it.

I don't think I would have a specific genre in publishing my blog. Probably I would post things that just came up to my mind and with luck, I am on the computer (I don't like the process of turning on the computer, really).

Thanks to you who are still reading till this part of My Very First Attempt. I hope you would keep me in mind and feel free to comment anything, I could really accept criticism.

Honestly never thought anyone would actually read my blog. I truly feel honor to have you reading my blog.

Enjoy your day!

Cheers,
Synonym96